The urge had been gnawing at me for the past few days, words trying to claw their way out of me. I've become really good at shutting my "writing brain" down during school, avoiding it more than ever. It is hard to push something away like poetry or story characters brewing inside your head, until you get good at it.
Then the characters go silent. You don't hear their heartbeats. You don't get random sentences in the middle of the day, you don't come up with poetry lines in the middle of a Biochemistry lecture. If you stop feeding it long enough, the feeling goes away. You stop feeling guilty for leaving it behind, for watching dust accumulate on your journal. Then you think, "Perfect. I can keep this going until winter break."
Here's what happens when you are a writer trying to silence your inner writer:
1- You can sleep without having to worry about dropping a few ideas you had onto a page.
2- You finally get more homework done without having a new word doc for a poem open
3- The silence becomes comforting
4-You start to think you have control
5- A month or so passes, and the notifications about the open mics are more obvious. It's like they're YELLING AT YOU.
6- You listen to a new spoken word poem your friend sent you. And another. And another. And ideas start coming...
7- You try to ignore them and go back to doing your homework, but they keep coming...
8- Eventually, your best ideas try to arise when you have an exam coming up and you'd much rather be writing than studying.
9- The characters' voices are muffled, but you can see what they're doing again, their actions, hear their thoughts.
10- You convince them to wait, you'll get to them but they never believe you and try to stay by your side as you study.
11- You hear a new song on the way to school that makes you think of THE PERFECT SCENE.
12- News pops up on your Facebook page and you need to write a poem to express to the world how sad this makes you feel.
13- You take your exam, take a nap and once you wake up, your inner writer cannot be silenced to save your life. Too many lines come at you at once, too many important things to write about come rushing at you, and then you remember your blog, and your home and how much you miss writing about it and the thoughts don't stop until they render you incapable of even thinking of any of your science homework because what better to do than write write write write....
14- After the "explosion", you pick yourself up and make it to the computer, journal on hand, so you can write a list of what just happened in hopes it will straighten your ideas out and make you realize NEVER TO IGNORE YOUR INNER WRITER. She will get VERY mad.
15- Then you remember how much you love her :)
Get ready, this blog is going to be updated much more often!
Then the characters go silent. You don't hear their heartbeats. You don't get random sentences in the middle of the day, you don't come up with poetry lines in the middle of a Biochemistry lecture. If you stop feeding it long enough, the feeling goes away. You stop feeling guilty for leaving it behind, for watching dust accumulate on your journal. Then you think, "Perfect. I can keep this going until winter break."
Here's what happens when you are a writer trying to silence your inner writer:
1- You can sleep without having to worry about dropping a few ideas you had onto a page.
2- You finally get more homework done without having a new word doc for a poem open
3- The silence becomes comforting
4-You start to think you have control
5- A month or so passes, and the notifications about the open mics are more obvious. It's like they're YELLING AT YOU.
6- You listen to a new spoken word poem your friend sent you. And another. And another. And ideas start coming...
7- You try to ignore them and go back to doing your homework, but they keep coming...
8- Eventually, your best ideas try to arise when you have an exam coming up and you'd much rather be writing than studying.
9- The characters' voices are muffled, but you can see what they're doing again, their actions, hear their thoughts.
10- You convince them to wait, you'll get to them but they never believe you and try to stay by your side as you study.
11- You hear a new song on the way to school that makes you think of THE PERFECT SCENE.
12- News pops up on your Facebook page and you need to write a poem to express to the world how sad this makes you feel.
13- You take your exam, take a nap and once you wake up, your inner writer cannot be silenced to save your life. Too many lines come at you at once, too many important things to write about come rushing at you, and then you remember your blog, and your home and how much you miss writing about it and the thoughts don't stop until they render you incapable of even thinking of any of your science homework because what better to do than write write write write....
14- After the "explosion", you pick yourself up and make it to the computer, journal on hand, so you can write a list of what just happened in hopes it will straighten your ideas out and make you realize NEVER TO IGNORE YOUR INNER WRITER. She will get VERY mad.
15- Then you remember how much you love her :)
Get ready, this blog is going to be updated much more often!
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