Metaphors & Medicine

I could hear the engines of the aircraft blaring below me, the soft rumbling moving our chairs beneath us. This part was always my favorite, the excitement of looking out the window and realizing the next time I’d be on the ground again, the view outside the window would be one that always made me feel whole, alive again, and the closest to myself that I ever felt. It would be the beginning of weeks I would never forget, as my time back home always is. It didn’t matter that we stood in line with so many people. It didn’t matter how heavy the suitcases were. It didn’t matter that it would take hours of passing through Israeli border control before I’d finally say “I’m home.”  What mattered is I would be home, once again, for a brief period that would leave me in a state of grief once I left it again, trying to hold myself together until the next time I was aboard that plane. This was one year ago.  Two years ago on this exact day, I was finishing my final day on another pediatr...

Knock.  Sanitize .  Introduce yourself.  Excuse yourself for interrupting their breakfast.  Find a seat if possible to sit at their level, to speak to them, rather than speak down at them.  Hope they’re feeling better.  Hear their progress and celebrate even the little milestones.  Let them vent their complaints, their worries, their misfortune to have this happen to them.  Listen to their heart. Listen to their heart. Listen to their heart.  Make a plan. Walk more.  We want you walking more.  Encourage them to stick to it.  Hold them accountable by reminding them you’ll be back to hear about more progress, to cheer on their progress.  We want you better.  We want to help you be better, feel better, look better, sleep better.  Go around, see more patients, repeat repeat repeat.  Finish note.  Write the next one.  Sign sign sign.  Hope you didn’t forget anything.  Take a sip of liquid...

“Even though you leave the hospital doesn’t mean the hospital leaves you.”  I have heard this countless times over the last few months in particular as I have ventured through clinicals. We get talked to about work-life balance, about the need to create a safe space for you to escape to without the weight of the lives on your shoulders. Yet, surgeons said they woke up at night wondering if their patients had complications overnight, pediatricians saw their young patients in their own children when they put them to bed at night, hospitalists rechecked if they had put in the correct medication order hours prior to prevent any terrifying adverse outcome.  Yet this *pandemic* that I am so tired of reading/hearing/living/breathing/speaking about has made me think more and more about what that must feel like.  I think often of the patients I had during my month on Transplant Surgery and wonder if their immunocompromised states have survived what we have all been afraid ...